What a freaking day! I felt like shit all day. I was over the top tired, foggy, lethargic, and just plain out of it. I went to work but got the go ahead to go home at about 1:45pm. I hopped in my GMC Terrain and started her up. Oh no, I heard some sort of weird noise that just didn’t sound right. I work right next to the Cadillac dealership that just replaced my transmission last week. Oh, did I mention that my car is a 2010! Nothing but problems with this thing! The dealership couldn’t hear the sound but decided to keep it overnight. They did not have a loaner vehicle for me this time so instead I was chauffeured over to the local Enterprise car rental. Cadillac will only pay for a tiny little car and I have a HUGE accessory appointment tomorrow. So, I am springing the extra for an SUV. What kind of SUV did I end up with? The Chevy version of my car! The same color and all. I finally made it home but did not get to rest because I am super stressed over the whole car thing.
My class started yesterday and I have not made any progress on this weeks assignments- at least I have blocked out most of the day on Thursday and Friday for this very reason.
With all of the stuff going on right now I am surprised I have not cracked and had a smoke. I am holding strong still! I think part of the reason I felt like shit today is because I am detoxing and this time around from cigarettes too.
Overall, today was a difficult day and I wanted to smoke really, really, really badly- but, I did NOT! I am super tired and ready for bed. I am feeling a bit run down with all of the stress, but, I am chugging along.
Mood- stressed but otherwise not bad
Mental clarity- shit
As always- FUCK YOU CANCER!!!! God I pray that you show me the path I need to go down. Thank you Father for the life you have provided me.